today was pretty much a shitty dull day for me. did nothing much but developing the photos when i got up and then slacked most of my day off my couch with nuttin but ma tv. mum got home soon after with a packet of rice. nuts, eggs and i can't remember wad's the third ingredient. got sick of sitting at home not knowing what's wil doing out with mizoe for so long cos he haven't called, i msged him. he spent 7 or more hours out with her today. i shld be fine but i'm not. i'm worried sick. blame it on paranoia while i would prefer to blame it on some past incidents. went over to hav some dinner with ma folks at joo chiat where the food pretty much sucked altho it weren't too bad. i juz didn't feel too gd eating them. had bbq stingray that was tasting fine but got sick of it after awhile. wanton noodles took ages to come and my dad growled at the woman twice before i had my noodles. the onli thing that pretty much tasted rite were the chicken wings. such a pathetic place. mebbe i'm being melodramatic but i'm not sure. i'm juz pretty dwn. everything's makin me dwn somehow. took a long time scanning the pictures that didn't turn out as gd as i wanted em to be cos it was kinda too dark but anyway, it out. So here's where the picture for my BBQ lies. stumbled into a blog of some unknown girl named Alex. a blog which i tot was unique and much desired by me to have own something lidat but i haven't got the knowledge of page building so, gotta juz fuck scrap the idea. suddenly i'm tempted to make my blog in shades of gray and juz chuck all the pictures of dolls.

guess the onli thing worth being happy about was being able to chat up with seng like old times. somehow it seemed as though some misunderstandings have been lifted and i no longer get the cold and hostile replies. mum snatched the photos for me to see before i could scanned em. i did not intend to show her actually cos fred's pix iz innit. dad wanted to hav a look at em durin the nite while i was not noticing until i sneaked an excuse about puttin em into an album first but did not bother to show him again later. the last thing i want, is to hav him find about abt my r/s and poke his freakin nose in.